The Opportunity of the Fire

“Now there was a great wind, so strong that it was splitting mountains and breaking rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a sound of sheer silence.” – 1 Kings 19:11-12

The day our church building was targeted by an arsonist was a hazy blur of tears and smoke and meetings and phone calls and anger and interviews and asking how and asking why and more tears.

Then, in the late afternoon, a guy drove into the lot.  He was the cool kind of pastor I’m automatically suspicious of, with hipster glasses and really fantastic shoes.  Later, I found out that he is one of more than forty staff at a mega-church nearby, a church that had put considerable time and money into funding the opposite side of the marriage equality conversation.

And yet, he got out of his car and looked around at the devastation left by the fire and asked simply, “Can I pray with you?” And then he put his arms around me and asked God to uphold the congregation and me, their pastor.  In the wind and quake and fire here was a still, small moment of peace and comfort – two formerly warring siblings in Christ, hugging and weeping and praying together.

The Great Mystery, our conference minister Walter John Boris reminded us that day, does not cause terrible things to happen to punish us, or teach us a lesson, or make us stronger, or prepare us for a greater challenge.  Instead, the Holy Spirit helps us to make the best of any tragedy.

Did God make a fire so I could pray with a so-called enemy in the parking lot? Absolutely not.  But did God use the opportunity of the fire to create a little pocket of understanding and common ground where before there had been only mistrust?  Oh, yes.  God did that.

Prayer

Oh yes, God.  You did that.  Amen.

About the Author
Jennifer Brownell is an ordained UCC minister and the author of Swim, Ride, Run, Breathe: How I Lost a Triathlon and Caught My Breath, her inspiring memoir.